Okay so I’m just gonna let this out.
It’s been on my chest for a while. I’ve contemplated putting it down here, but never got to it until now.
I was just wondering, why do girls, worthy girls, allow guys to bring you down? Is it that you’re not confident with yourself? Is it because you have a low self esteem? I see so many girls out there, allowing guys to walk all over them. Intelligent, young ladies. He has a small job that earns a few dollars here and there. You have a good job. He talks like he’s the boss, walks and acts like one. Yet, he be spending all your dough. Ladies, whatsup with that??? 😐
On to top it off, he doesn’t give you his time. He sees you as a bank. He uses you. He uses your car, your house, your food. Everything. Yet he doesn’t pay attention to you? He doesn’t make you feel wanted? He doesn’t make you feel like the worthy lady that you are? He leaves you all night to spend time with his boys? He has time for everything but you? He thinks the hour he spends with you at a grocery store is enough??? When you confront him, he says he doesn’t nothing wrong? He says you shouldn’t have an issue because he is not consuming alcohol? ‘cos he ain’t clubbing? He makes you feel stupid or needy? He makes you feel as if you are at fault for wanting some time with him? All you ever do is wait for him to give you some time? You want nothing else but some love, affection and effort from his side? You don’t ask for much? You never ask for materialistic items? Yet he still doesn’t appreciate you? Girl, he is trash.
What are you doing with trash like that? Why? Why are you messing up your bright future? Don’t you see he is just a huge, black cloud blocking your sunny days? A man that never admits to his wrongs, never sees his wrongs therefore will never change those wrongs. A man that truly deserves you is one that has time for you, makes time for you, spend time with you. You don’t need no material shit. You can provide that for yourself. But a spoil here and there, is special. You need to be special to someone. You aren’t a hobby. You are a lady, with morals and values. You are a lady that deserves to be treated with dignity, respect and be showered with the utmost love. Why you gotta beg for his time? That’s not on. The moment you feel like you gotta beg, girl, you know where the door is. Make use of it like he is making use of it every night he leaves to spend time with his boys. Let him feel a good woman gone. Let him regret. Care less. It will hurt, let it go.you will become stronger. You will realise that you’re worth more than that. You will eventually find that there’s someone out there, deserving of a woman of your calibre, someone that will treat you the way you should be treated. A way that will make you feel like a queen in the insides. You will melt. You will be so happy, you’d be able to feel your chest scream with joy. Just hold on, you will get there. You gotta go through a storm, before you have the pleasure of seeing a beautiful rainbow. 🌈